The Smokey Mountains and Cherokee, NC.
April 2012
2012
Almost to the fourth month of the New Year and I have not blogged in a full year.
I lost sight of it, I lost the want to share myself.
2012, was… over all a very welcomed year. I did find change in myself but in doing so I lost track of my closeness with earth and life. I became consumed with others and material things. Sort of a backslide on the path I was taking.
I didn’t go to one Pow Wow… not one.
I visited some friends in Cherokee, NC for a weekend. I actually did that rather than go buy something new. I was proud of that, choosing friends over materialistic matters… That was last April…
It was wonderful being the Smokey Mountains, it was damp, cool and had a nice smell. It was comforting. Seeing something new and having a life experience is priceless to me, I thrive on it.
I find myself now moving to a new city. I find myself often in a darker thinking pattern.
My hopes are I find peace and get back on my path. I hate to think I have lost complete sight of what is dear to me… Even as I type this I struggle to make it sound like I care, it shouldn’t be a struggle… it should flow.
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I will share some pictures of the Smokey’s I took. The words have ceased to come from me…
2011
Thought I would think out loud here before the new year begins.
I think back at 2011. I find myself, finding myself. It’s hard, harder than one would think.
I have learned that in searching for understanding, joy, peace and beauty. You have to find all of those things in yourself before ever finding them in others.
I am far from finding such things, I have test placed in front of me daily and when someone angers me I have to try to see it how they do, find the higher ground and yet I still stay angry.
It must come with time, and only time will be the one to tell me when I have it close to being right.
2012, I will try harder, to understand those things I don’t understand. Find some joy in my own life, be at peace with whatever comes my way and lastly try to find beauty in all that is around me, and even try to find it within myself.
Be well everyone, and have a Happy SAFE New Year.
I am off to Pow Wow.
Mitaku Oyasin (we are all related)
Ryan Red Corn wrote a powerful poem. Him and his crew 1491’s made a video back in March.
Awareness… comes in all forms.
Please watch.
Awareness is key to fixing any problem. Reblog this, share it, educate anyone you can.
Mitaku Oyasin
probably one of the sweetest things ive seen in all my life.
I agree, what a sweet video.
Oh those Native Men! :)
I learned something about myself..
When in a conversation it gets on a subject either I am very familiar with or not comfortable with I will shut down and disengage.
When someone is making their point of view, their “Opinion” on something sound as if it is a fact, it’s factual, its the only way… I drop out of the conversation.
When someone is trying to convey their point in a argumentative tone, harsh and non-stop. I no longer try to get my point across, I simply listen to them.
When I have found myself in these situations I often say to myself, argue back make your point be heard! But I don’t… I wait and later on, in my own way, repeat the same thing that was said in my point of view, as if it is just a thought… Most the time, I am agreed with.
Just let them think they are right.. People can never let go of what they think is a fact, even if its only their opinion.
